amelia (mmmbopthis) wrote,

I feel like death warmed over

I forgot what it feels like to do chemo. It's been over a month, and this week has been nothing but wanting to sleep my life away. I hope tomorrow is better.

Feeling better than monday, though, that was a rough day emotionally.

Andrea, you are right. That is totally illegal. I don't really know what to do. The thing is, I don't think he knows what he is doing either, you know? I was supposed to get money, and now I am not. I am in a bind.

And I lost my makeup bag so I had to go buy new makeup. Which I know sounds really really superficial, but it's one thing that makes me have just an ounce of confidence right now. My mom gave me this book to kind of help with everything, and it says two things that I totally agree with (well, more than that, but I like these two the best - they keep your day regular when you are going through chemo-hell). "a)take a walk every day if you can, and b)put on makeup in the morning, even if you go right back to sleep after that." Just two things that help with routine and make it that much more bearable.

Anyway, thanks for listening to me gripe guys and gals. I know it hasn't been easy for you. I love you all.
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