Not really venting. Just kind of neutral to everything right now. I am sick and they don't really know why. I mean, they gave me drugs and took blood. the drugs help somewhat but it doesn't cure anything completely
feeling guilty. I hurt someone. And I feel guilty for that. But at the same time, to everything, turn turn turn, there is a season, turn turn turn. Or so say the Byrds. I think...
Just...I have so many things that I want to do with my life and I am so young and i know that isn't a good reason. but I think it is. I am unsure of the path that is in front of me
Because I have so many to choose from. Although I hate my poli sci class and I almost never go to it, at least I know that isn't what I want to do, right? right. I seriously think there are too many good classes to only go here for four years. I don't ever want to graduate. Silly me.
And and and. I have seriously thought about going to unity village. I know that sounds weird, me, an ordained minister. But I don't really know. I mean, I have thought a lot about it and teri, our previous minister, was a really good influence on me (IMHO) and I love her and miss her and I have been praying a lot over things in my life right now and i have started going to church on friday nights with some kids from band and I love it.
I just don't know. But that which does not kill us makes us stronger. And I think that I just need to get back on my path and be all that I can be OUTSIDE of the army.
I love you all and miss you and I can't wait to see you andrea and jess and when do I get to visit you doris? And Jeanne, it really is friday, but maybe sunday? Not quite sure. And Erin, you and I are gonna have to hang out some time and Naima, I am not really sure what's wrong, but I hope that if you need me you will let me know and Jennifer I hope things go well with MR TA. And jenn b, we need to hang out. seriously. And there are others that just kind of don't post. Like beth whose emails en masse I miss cuz they were hellishly funny and always made my day and kat who just never posts. love you all