There, I said it. I am scared shitless to move back to Eugene.
I was freaking out today about moving while I was packing my shit up and I realized just how selfish I have been with my time and I should have spent more time with my mom and I miss her so much. I love my mom more than anyone ever. Even though everyone to a certain point has fucked up, I still love her dearly. And I have been so selfish, not wanting to live with her because of Kym. But if kym makes her happy, then I should be happy for her. But I am so fucking selfish!
And tomorrow I go to freaking hanson and I am stoked! I can't believe I am this excited about one concert. Dizzam. And then I move. It isn't the ideal thing, of course, but I am stoked and scared and just a big fat idiot. I just want a hug and for someone to tell me that everything will be okay and that I am not as dumb as I feel. Any takers?