The doubt, the fear, the angst.
Of the shows I hear I miss. Of the parties I hear I miss. Of the girls with their windows down, their real hair blowing in the wind. Of all the people I see on the patio of a restaurant, the only things on their minds being their morning coffee and who gets the Subaru for the day. Of all the people living their lives while I wait.
for something. for anything. for life. a new life. a chance at life. a renewed life.