And first off, let me say that I love my friends. I really do. I would be lost without them, lost without the people that keep me going through the day. Regardless of how hermitish I appear, I thrive on my friends.
LJ friends are very similar. I love coming home to my inbox and reading the replies that I recieve. Most of them are ultimately good, and almost all of them I appreciate.
And most of the people on my flist, I know. Like, 80% of my flist. I usually don't cut people whom I know or have met personally. Sometimes I'll add people in a comm that I'm in and then I like to learn about their life. It's human nature, right?
But then differences happen. Something shifts. People grow apart. It's all normal and very human-y. And while it's not fair to all parties involved, it still happens.
Life happens. People drift and go their separate ways. Sometimes I read my flist and I don't even know who some of my "friends" are anymore. It's not meant in the dramatic way, it's meant in the drifting apart way. Sometimes friends get cut as a result of a fight, or something else stupid. Yeah, that one hurt. But LJ drama is really far too petty to cross over into real life, as hypocritical as that may sound.
Maybe I've become a tight-knit, annoyingly friends-only wench. But it just so happens that I don't really find myself interested in people who I never talk to anymore. Time and people have passed so much that attentions tend to wander. Sometimes both sides just don't care. And that's fine.
I hate having this unlocked but realistically that's the only way the people that need to see it will see it.