Completely out of the blue, I wrote to Robert's family. I mean, this guy passed away four years ago, and this was the first time I tried to contact them. I don't know why, something in me just told me to do it.
Hung out with my parents yesterday, they were here for the Maya Angeloud thingy. It was really good to see them. I miss them soooo much! We went to the Unity here, the first time I have gone here. It was good, a lot like home. All unitics are alike! We went to the museum of natural history, out to dinner, I showed them a little of the campus...it was just really good to see them.
I went to a show here on saturday night. Unfortunately, Eugene college kids don't know what to do with hard core old skool punk rock. It was really dumb, everyone just stood around. Finally, some kids started skanking and shit (what the hell do you call that??? moshing? I hate that word!), and I joined. It was great, I was the smallest one (and the only girl), and as a result one of the kids knocked me down. I didn't really care or anything, that's what happens. I was just amused by the fact that all the guys just stopped in their tracks cuz they didn't know what to do, the only girl had fallen! haha. And then I fucked my foot up and landed funny. My parents made me go to the doc. I am still finding new bruises on my body, it's like playing hide and go seek with my body.
haha. my friends are in love. and going to tacoma. damn them.
I am making myself decide what I want to do with the rest of my life by the end of this term. I have narrowed it down to two choices, Pre-law or education. This is a big decision for me. I just want to get things out of the way...on one hand, law would be amazingly fun...kinda sorta in a not fun kind of way. I don't want to get stuck in a rut and be the bad lawyer that everyone hates, but I can specify what kind of law, like environmental law or something. I also know that is the harder and more demanding major of the two. But I don't want to base my decision on the fact that I know that I am a lazy bastard. I just need to find something that I love. I can see myself doing so many things...but I want to be happy with my decision, and therefor I need to get it right the first time around. On the other hand, I have always wanted to teach, and I think that I would be better at that. And, there are sooo many budget cuts right now. I want to be secure, but I don't really care about the money aspect of it. Does that make any sense? Most likely not. maybe I don't really know what I am talking about. And law...I don't know if I could be that studious. I really don't...but, and I know this is just my parents, my mom has always said that I would make an excellent lawyer...
I took out my eyebrow rings. gotta change things up every once in a while.