August 26th, 2006

bear and amelia

(no subject)

It begins.

The doubt, the fear, the angst.

The jealousy.

Of the shows I hear I miss. Of the parties I hear I miss. Of the girls with their windows down, their real hair blowing in the wind. Of all the people I see on the patio of a restaurant, the only things on their minds being their morning coffee and who gets the Subaru for the day. Of all the people living their lives while I wait.



for something. for anything. for life. a new life. a chance at life. a renewed life.