Didn't go to church. Meh. Didn't really want to.
Talked to john again on the phone. that makes it twice now. I could understand him quite clearer and it was amazing talking to him, if talking to a wonderful boy can be better the second time than the first. I dunno. Figure it out. He has a wonderful sweet laugh. I'm only sorry that I couldn't talk longer.
Got off the phone and promptly freaked out over the whole remission/out of remission, him coming here thing. Freaked out hardcore. I'm still in remission, but it's always something that will be etched in the back of my mind. I hated chemo. I don't want to go through it again. Felt nauseous. Couldn't eat. Didn't eat anything before I left.
Went to Celena's surprise birthday party. It was good. Talked a lot to one of the sisters, Carly, and her boyfriend Matt who live with Linda. They're gonna come up and party with me when I turn 21. Maybe she doesn't realize that I don't party that much and I don't barhop, nor will I any time soon. I think they think I party like mad when I really don't.
Came home and freaked out at john online. For that, I'm sorry. I was so nervous and so worried, but talking it out helped. The circuit broke right as we started talking about it and I got really frustrated. It's just one of those days, you know? Don't really want to get all mushy or anything as none of you want to read it, but...yeah...ummm...I'm very luck to have him in my life.