amelia (mmmbopthis) wrote,

  • Mood:
  • Music:
*le sigh*

getting all emo-y and insecure.. Without even trying. many good things that I will be leaving in 9 days. I kind of feel emotionally beat up. And insecure. I think it's God's idea of a joke: let's put amelia in a kick ass situation with awesome people and interactions, and then let's put her in a really uncool situation and/or melancholy mood and see how she reacts. I feel like a lab rat. Did I mention insecure?

I sat and talked with some really great people tonight. I could actually talk to someone for their personality and intelligence, not because he happens to be one of those elite 9 primadonna bitches. I had run into rachel and sarah and he happened to be sitting with them.

Totally stressing about everything. I really really don't want to be gone for two months. I don't want things to change. I don't want to come back and have things be different. And what if something...worse...happens? I just want you all to know that I love you lots and nothing will ever change it. You all mean so much to me. Maybe later this week I will do something special. Maybe...*more sighs* if anything should go wrong, you all hold a dear place in my heart. Even the newbies. oh, god, so many thoughts. I know I shouldn't dwell on anything. I just have to keep reminding myself of the awesome life and kick ass friends i have right now. *Think good thoughts, peter!*

PS: This entry makes me feel like a bad person. Maybe I'll delete it in the morning...

PPS: Someone told me that I was "cheeky" and "funny" today. Don't know which entries *they've* been reading. haha...
  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.